Thursday, November 8, 2007

IN case you're wondering...

my blog is private again and will be private from now on.
Paul's family "the girls" to be exact, found my blog, read it and decided that I was defaming him, poisoning our kids against him, telling all our problems to anyone who wants to read it, taking no responsbility for any problems in our marriage, and printed out excerpts so his mom could read it and present it to Paul last night.
I"m devastated at my own naivete. That I never thought that they might do something like that. That in 180+ entries, they find 2 that are raw in my brokenness and that's all they see.
So sad and sorry for Paul. That I created this mess. That his family is who they are and react how they do. That they don't care in any kind of healthy way.
SO my thoughts will be for those I trust. No wonder he trusts no one. Now I struggle with who to trust.
I'm so angry. Sad. Fighting the feeling of guilt...


Shari said...

Trust in the Lord with all your heart! It really doesn't matter what they think. People are sinners and will always cause you grief. Just know that you ARE a good and loving person and God's love will carry you through this. I will say a prayer for you and I wish you all the best. Keep your chin up and keep smiling.

Coffee_Cassie said...

Ok, first of all, it's NOT your fault that Dad's family reacted the way they did, and it's NOT your fault that they singled out ONE post over all the rest. You can take THAT to the bank and cash it.

Secondly, you "poisoned" us against him??? BWAHAHAHA! I think that for a long long LONG time, you were the only healthy influence we had!!

Thirdly, and lastly, like I said before, I can understand why Dad's so broken inside and doesn't want to feel. If that's how I had been treated my whole life, I wouldn't want to feel either!